So today for my testimony I want to
talk about being close to God. And while I know I’m only seventeen,
throughout my life there have been good times and harder testing times.
So when things are going good for me it is easy to say how
great God is and look at all the blessings and things He has done for
me. When things are good I don’t question anything, I just know that it
is all in God’s plan and I trust in that.
When things get bad
though I’m ashamed to say that I feel like I become more and more
distant from God, I start to take things into my own hands and fix them
myself. I start to question why God would put me through these bad
things; why me?! I forget that everything has a reason.
A little while
back I was driving on my way to swim practice and I was in one of those
testing times and I was thinking oh how bad a situation I was in, and I
remember feeling far from God, there is a church sign on the way there,
the sign said “Feeling distant from God? Guess who moved.” This sign was
terrifying when I saw it, my heart dropped. Just thinking that I was
moving away from God scared me. At this moment I realized that I was
blaming God when I was the one doing wrong; I was the one moving away!
How could I get mad at God when he was just trying to help me? God tests
me because he loves me. He tests me because he wants me to be stronger
and love Him even more! See God just wants to be close to me, if I step
away from it all and look in, God just wants something simple; he wants
my love and my devotion.
In Deuteronomy it says, "For the Lord
your God is testing you to find out if you love the Lord your God with
all your heart and with all your soul," (Deut. 13:1-3).
sometimes that if I was God, and I had Heaven, who would I want there
with me? I would want the people that were fully committed to me and
weren’t going to stray. I wouldn’t want a house full of people that only
loved me when they were getting something out of it. I would want the
people that were always going to be with me and love me through
everything, in good times and bad.
See, I shouldn’t just be
fully in love with God when I get the blessings and I get what I want. I
need to realize that God has a reason for everything he does, and that
even when it seems I am getting nothing but testing from Him, I need to
still be close with him and to pass my testing so that I can become
stronger and more faithful to him. And I know that when I am focused on
him and obeying Him and listening for His lead that I will be happier.
So in conclusion I need to realize to just focus on God and stay
close to him, because when I stray and try to do my own thing it won’t
be blessed. I have to realize that there is a reason for everything and
that to be a true Christian I can’t pick and choose when it’s a good
time to praise God; I have to praise him always. In happy moments,
praise god. In difficult moments, seek God. In quiet moments, worship
God. In painful moments, trust God. In every moment, thank God. -- Amelia